Mysterious Life Updated

Life pursuit and Dreams: Vision, consistency and Persistence

I always believe in beginning with the end in mind, but how many of us can actually do that?


To be able to do that requires vision, consistency and persistence.

Vision is needed to know what is important in our life both currently and in the future. To have a bird's eye view of what is going on out there and in there. To know when to put a stop to working, resting, loving another and loving oneself. I need to have the vision to be able to see what i am currently doing and know whether if it is sustainable. To be working at breakneck speed and succumb to the demands of life is feasible but not valued. Know what is important and work with it with passion and desires. However, do not neglect the relationship that i have build around. It takes time to build trust and love in relationship and i should put value in that.


Consistency is a virtue and is a traits that i must continue to develop. Having a momentum to labor will allow one to see the fruits of the labor in time to come. The nuances and monotony of life might cause one to fall of its track. Alternatively, the fun and lure of entertainment puts one off track for a while. However, one who puts a firm grid in what ones believe in, and continue to labor persistently will ultimately succeed. Consistency requires a form of discipline. Like one who believes in his purpose, consistency put in an amount of effort ona daily basis without fails. The outcome is a growing of knowledge, love and stature.


Persistency and the idea of sheer grit is one that appeals much to me. I always like to believe that i am someone who put in effort and is determined to get what i want though that might not always be true. Currently, there are still two things that my sheer determination as not get the better off. FIrstly, it is the learning of an instrument, the guitar and secondly, my desire to do a masters. Be it for the glory of God, for the glory of man or for my future and my family or my missionary work, i has not put as much effort to it as i will wish to. Man can have many dreams, the heart can believe, and if the hand is willing, and the attitude is right; i believe that persistency in the effort to get something done will lead to success. As my primary school motto goes; "Hard work leads to success". I believe in it and i still do.

God will grant me success in my career, dreams, family, aspiration. I will continue to work hard in the aspects that i am weak in. Remember, not for the glory of Man but for the glory of God.

2nd Day in my JC

Overcoming myself
I guess i still feel Strange when i looked at people that i dunno. I guess it is a feeling of dunno what the other party expects. I guess, what i can do is to pray mroe to God to overcome any shyness that i have. So that i will be able to get out of my shell and shine for Him.

Prayer is Key
Pray to God that he will give me the importance of the big pictures, so much so that i will be energized to go ahead with no fears in the face of "Strangers". I pray for clarity of thoughts and of speech so that every single words that i used or say will be pleasing to the lord and will be useful for building people up. It will also be useful to "wire" knowledge over from Myself to the Students.

Busyness
I have received my timetable and i realized that i have 5 classes to teach. 1 Pw and 3 H2 Econs and 1 H1 Econs. Sort of expected this kinda of timetable. Though teaching have not started. The school induction and the discussion to standardize exams have taken up most of my time this week.

One thing i want to give thanks for
I give thanks to God for giving me such a nice environment. That i feel very much supported with the training and induction that i have been receiving from the VP, HOD and my colleagues here. Indeed, i can see myself staying in this school for long. I give thanks to God for people who are able to convey their expectations clearly. I give thanks for these people who communicates well the mission, vision and values of these organization that i can aligned myself with so easily. Just as a key fits into a keylock, i found myself to fit well into this organization. Thank God.

Looking forward to the next day.

Taking a leap of faith

I feel quite well settled into AJC. It is no longer a lonely long road which i first experience when i first did my practicum.

Instead of that, i truly feel that i am surrounded by people who wants to make a difference. Making a difference in the lives of the students.


Addressing my own fears
unless the lord builds the house, the builder build in vain,
Unless the lord watches over the city,
the watcher stand guard in vain.

Indeed, what i have to do is to commit everything i have to the lord. Trust in the lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding and he will give you the desire of your heart.

I pondered over the reasons why i would be afraid when i am among a sea of stranger (>5 students in a class for e.g.) I reckon that it is because, there is always a desire to build better impression. To want to impress others. But i reason to myself, Who do i want to impress? Impress God or Impress the students. I would like to do things for the lord.

Praise God that i am able to fulfil his calling. Being a teacher when my talents might not be exactly developed that. I pray to the lord to be given the talents. I pray to the lord so that the passion of my heart can be fulfilled. It has been some time since i last has an excitement in my heart. An excitement in my heart in the job that i am going to do. An excitement that i can make a difference.

Today i took the leap of faith in doing something that i have not done before. That is i am going to lecture soon. I know this day will come and it will just be a matter of time. I will have faith to trust God that everything is possible and that he will lead me to be a great teacher that is filled with the passion to lead students and allow them to grow to become great leaders of future.

Thank God.
Regards,
Qinlong

Photoshoots and some random thoughts.

Today, went for a photoshoot with Dear. It was time well spend with both of us enjoying the process of the photoshoot.

Lyn and her friend ask us how we first met and we narrate the scenario to them. With that story as the backdrop, they created a story with the photos that we took.

Enjoy the time spend with Yating. I guess making her happy makes my day. I think i can be easily satisified.

Went to my friend, daryl's wedding today. I were reminded of how quiet and reserved i can be. Besides the groom, i do not know any of his friends there. (As he didnt invite the rest of the secondary school friend). I guess it is really my character to be very much reserved and keep to myself. Guess, i just like being myself.

There are many things on my mind. I think i am on the path of knowing myself even better. I remember, back in My NUS days, Ivan did mentioned before that i am competitive. Well, i didnt agree to that. His viewpoints were further resonated with the viewpoints of some of my NIE friends who said the same things. I think, this still depends on my circumstances. If the occasion requires me to win, i would like to rise to the occasion to win. Nonetheless, i demand myself to put in the greatest effort i can input.

Just thinking of my strength of the desire to win and play games, i thought to myself. How good would it be if i can play games everyday. Pisstop cafe came across my mind as a possible avenue to look into.

But i still know, God has called me to work into the life of the youth. I want to be good role model for youth to follow after and i will want to take after Lord Jesus Christ image. Will pray to be more like him and less like myself.

My proposal Pictures !!

My proposal

I proposed to Yating!!! One month of project. One month of hiding from Yating!! =) It was indeed very hard to do it. Very very very very very hard to keep it from her and make her feel surprise!! But it is done. I am sooooooooooo happy! =)

Thanks to my friends who have make it possible.
Thanks to Weibin and ronghui, for making their effort to come to my house to practice Singing and playing the guitar. Without you all, the proposal won’t be as good. Ronghui and weibin help me to contribute much ideas for the proposal. They have help me to re-define it and make it sooo much better.
Thank yenleng and yanling for coordinating. Yenleng, especially took time off her 2 tests, 3 projects and 1 presentation next week, to spend time with us on Sat. Such a friend.. So hard to find.. THANKS Yenleng!! You are really nice!!

I propose to Yating, a 4.55 min DVD on our 4 years 7 months and 1 day today, Real-life CAREBEAR MASCOT to LEAD her to the wii room, guitar, singing for “household of faith”, Flowers, Wii and Diamond ring.
Most importantly, the presence of our DA-LEO friends and YMCA friends.
Namely, they are, Yanling, Yenleng, Wanzi, Cailing, Jane, Ivan, Ronghui, Weibin, Weihao!!
Thanks for making it a success

Reflection Practitioner

I realized that in life, there are many realities that we have to face and there are many deceptions that are happening. To be a thinker, means we are suppose to dissect between the two. TO be a Christian, means that i must have the faith to believe in my lord saviour to ask him for the qualities that I am lacking of.
I realize from the project meeting that sometimes, i will miss the overarching main idea on what the other party is saying and might go off tangent with my ideas. I need to think about my thinking to see why this is so. As a result, i need to seek possibility in improving my tots and processes to make it relevant.
Secondly, I would like to ask God for musical talents and is an area that I would definitely want to develop in.

Developing a habit of reading
I went back to SAJC for interview; I think God has granted me favour with the HOD and Subject Head for i think that they are quite open with me during the discussion. I think i need a school that is not political and whereby teachers are open to share their resources. I think SAJC seems to be a pretty good school to go to. As i was previously from SAJC and i need to work in an environment that is not political. Personally, i don’t like politic environment.
I share with them, that my personal viewpoint it that we should in calculate a reading habit in the next generation so much so that their intrinsic motivation will strive to allow them to want to learn independently.
Indeed, i have also set for myself a target. I should be reading at least 12 books per year in order to further enhance my knowledge on things. Enhance my understanding of the world and what people think about it.

Striving for excellence
I think i should focus on my strength and build up my weakness so that my weakness is no longer a weakness and so that my strength can excel. The three things that i need to work on. Firstly, one of my weaknesses is musical intelligence. I am really no good in this and have no idea even on the basic thing. Secondly, something that i can improve on is my presentation skills. Not totally a weakness, but can be even better. Thirdly, is the pronunciation of the word or words with R, i also should take note of my grammar and tenses in which I tends to be careless. I must make sure that i am speaking in a formal speech format so that students can learn perfect English.

Relationship
I give thanks and praise God that my relationship with Yating seems to be getting better. Even Yating feels it. I give thanks for the so many people in our life that has help in our relationship by their sharing and counsel. Indeed, God’s counsel has it strength. Their practical advices and experiences have indeed open new views about one another. I think God is indeed good and it is sweet to stay in God’s presence. Many of the ‘bad’ can be avoided if one mediated on God’s word and he/she will be like a plant near the river side; whereby we would continually be nourished so much so that we will grow from strength to strength. Indeed, Lord, may u help my relationship with Yating, relationship with friends and family to flourish.

Quality of a good teacher

Being a teacher is challenging. There are many different roles that I need to play well. E.g. To be a good role model, to be able to have content mastery, to be a good mentor, to be a good public speaker and to be able to pronunciate all words properly plus the ability to reflect and rethink about our own train of thoughts to be a professional practitioner so as to improve on the processes of teaching and our own heuristics of teaching.

Therefore, to sum up, being a teacher encompasses many different roles and requires us to have good skill sets to be able to succeed in this line.

Purpose of Teaching: I just want to remind myself that God has called me into teaching because he this is my calling. This is the place that God want to give me to open a door to influence young minds and to allow them to be Christ like.
My own fears of teaching:

Firstly, I think i do not warm up to people that easily, so the first few classes i might need it to warm up to the class. Generally, i hope that my sincerity and my desire to teach the students the processes of thinking and the desire to infuse knowledge and values would put me on my best foot forward.

Secondly, Public speaking is still not my forte, and i might get cold feet from time to time. This is link to the first factor i realize. If i perceived the environment to be hostile, generally i can feel adrenaline running high. However, if i think that it is a friendly environment, it is easy to be myself and deliver the contents. I realized that in my weakness, i should look at God for Strength. For when i come into teaching, i have already known my weakness. But i am convinced by the words in the bible.

In 1 Cor1:26: Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God choose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of the world and the despised things and the things that are not – to nullify the things that are. So that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God – that is , our righteousness holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is writer: “Let him who boasts boast in the lord.

Indeed, I have known my own weakness and constraint even before going into teaching, but God lead me in the faith. Yes, i want to be a good teacher and i am willing to be taught by the holy spirit and to have faith to be a good teacher.